Last saying for this year..

I almost ask God..
"God...
give me da best soulmate I've been waiting for throughout this year.."



but suddenly I shut my mouth off,
I close my eyes quietly..
I change my mind,
and then I whisper..
"God..
Please make me to be da best soulmate for someone I'll be searching for throughout next year.."

Happy nu year everyone..
:)

Winner vs Loser --- Happy Nu Year!!!

The Winner is always part of the answer;
The Loser is always part of the problem.

The Winner is always has a program;
The Loser always has an excuse.

The Winner says,"Let me do it for you;
The Loser says;" That is not my job."

The Winner sees an answer for every problem;
The Loser sees a problem for every answer.

The Winner says," It may be difficult but it is possible";
The Loser says,"It may be possible but it is too difficult."

When a Winner makes a mistake, he says," I was wrong";
When a Loser makes a mistake, he says," It wasn't my fault."

A Winner makes commitments;
A Loser makes promises.

Winners have dreams;
Loser have schemes.

Winners say," I must do something";
Losers say,"Something must be done."

Winners are a part of the team;
Losers are apart from the team.

Winners see the gain;
Losers see the pain.

Winners see possibilities;
Losers see problems.

Winners believe in win/win;
Losers believe for them to win someone has to lose.

Winners see the potential;
Losers see the past.

Winners are like a thermostat;
Losers are like thermometers.

Winners choose what they say;
Losers say what they choose.

Winners use hard arguments but soft words;
Losers use soft arguments but hard words.

Winners stand firm on values but compromise on petty things;
Losers stand firm on petty things but compromise on values.

Winners follow the philosophy of empathy: "Don't do to others what you
would, not want them to do to you";
Losers follow the philosophy, "Do it to others before they do it to you."

Winners make it happen;
Losers let it happen...




I'm gonna be a WINNER for 2009..
Frohes Neues! Ich wünsche dir ein frohes neues Jahr!!

I've Got The Power!! :D

These sentences gives me more power...
I wanna share it with you..
^^

***

Begin Again

One of the best things we can do in our lives is this:
Begin again.

Begin to see yourself as you were
When you were the happiest and strongest you've ever been.

Begin to remember what worked for you
(and what worked against you),
And try to capture the magic again.

Begin to remember how natural it was when you were a child --
To live a lifetime each day.

Begin to forget the baggage you have carried with you
For years:
The problems that don't matter anymore,
The tears that cried themselves away,
And the worries that are going to wash away
On the shore of tomorrow's new beginnings.

Tomorrow tells us it will be here every new day of our lives;
And if we will be wise,
We will turn away from the problems of the past
And give the future -- and ourselves -- a chance
To become the best of friends.
Sometimes all it takes is a wish in the heart to let yourself ..
Begin again...

Be Grateful..

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trails to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to bring you joy.

Always put yourself in another's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't get on well in life until you let go of past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying....


***

Christmas is coming,
Be Blessed everyone..
God Bless you.. :p

NARSIS (n GOKIL) MODE ON... Hahahahaha!

Aku dapet PR nih dari bli Nyoman..

Sebenernya dapet PRnya udah dari kemarin2 yah bli? tapi berhubung waktu baca PRnya bli lagi ngenet pake hp dan sesuai peraturan langsung jepret2 ga pake dandan2 ato ganti baju (tapi bergaya dikit iya... hahaha ga ada kan di peraturan ga boleh bergaya??? :D )
Akhirnya baru bisa aku kerjakan PR ini sekarang deh... :


This is the rules :

1. Take a recent photo of yourself OR take a picture of yourself RIGHT NOW
2. DON'T change your cloth. DON'T fix your hair, just take a picture
3. Post that picture with NO editing
4. Post this instruction with your picture
5. Tag ur fren to do this

Coba tebak.... ni ekspresi pusing habis ujian minggu ini,
kebelet boker, apa habis ditonjok orang seh???
Hahahahha.....

Tuh foto diambil pas lagi belajar di kosan di kala ujian akhir blok ECCE
alias Emang Cewe Cantik Eik!! Hahahhaaa...

(kaga ding.. aslinya Early Clinic and Community Exposure yang ujian OSCE ampe 14 stase itu!!! Omigod..

Kami udah biasa dianiaya pengelola blok sih.. tapi mbok yo yo mbok mbok yo...????







....


....
Apa sih yos....?)



Well intinyaaa..
harap dimaklumi gayanya yah?? hahahah
Akhirnya minggu ujian akhir blok terlewati juga hari ini..
dan PRpun sudah saya kerjakan.. ^^



Tapiiii.......



maaf ni bli....


Berhubung waktu itu lagi stress (pake berat...)
Jadinya malah bernarsis ria ceprat-cepret pake hp baru (huahahahah.. pamer ni gw.. -- ya iyalah..! hp beli pake duit sendiri sih.. catatan : Non Beasiswa PIIC yah?? :D)


Dan meskipun gue harusnya tau malu tuh jerawat lagi pada panen, pada nongol di muka gara-gara lagi PMS dan aku yakin minggu ini ato minggu depan tamu bulanan bakal dateng neh.. ^^ ... Dan muka standar dan ngebosenin kek gue emang seharusnya tidak ditampilkan dalam forum umum.. (hehehe) Gpp ah.. mo bernarsis ria di sini ahhhh pake gaya-gaya gokil gue!!


(Sumpah....
batas antara Percaya Diri ma Ga Tau Malu tuh emang sulit dibedakan... )


:D

Mw tau apa aja gaya-gaya menjijikkan gue???
Well..
Check these out! :p

Kalo kata Inez ini gaya eS-Te-De..
alias standar..
no expression... =_="

Kalo ini gaya perempuan jalanan yang udah ga punya rumah...
hahahaha..

Niatnya mo imut tapi jadinya amit...

Yang ini pengin lebih imut tapi jadinya lebih amit-amit...

Ekspresi mo gantung diri...
(Dibuktikan dengan kaki yang ngegantung itu tuh... )

Ekspresi meratapi jerawat...

Ekspresi ketimpuk kebo...

Aduuh.. yang baca bau nih...
Ga nyadar ya?? :p

Waaa.. tumben rambutku rapihan dikit :p

waaa.. yang ini lebih rapi...! ^^

Waaa.. yang ini yang paling rapi!!!! ~\(^^)/~
(sumpah ya.. 3 foto terakhir paling ga penting..
pengin gaya doank...+_+" )

Dan terakhir..

Ekspresi menggoda...

haHAAaaaaaAAAAhaHAAAA......!!!
Semua foto ini asli lho TANPA REKAYASA!!







WOITZZZZ!!


Sebelum anda mual, muntah dan hampir membanting layar anda karena begitu muak dengan keEnggaPentingan saya nampilin muka-muka iblis saya.. (Apa sudah dibanting?? hehehe..) Tentu ada tujuannya dooonk gue nampilin kemenjijikkan ini..

Hehehe...

Karena saya mo berbagi PR nya bli Nyoman ini dengan orang2 di bawah ini sekaligus nantangin mereka upload foto2 gokiiiiLLLLL segokil-gokilnya mereka!!

dan yang beruntung mendapatkan PR dan tantangan ini adalah....
1. Mrs. Homer Simpson,
ato yg sekarang udah ganti nama jadi mrs.Arifin.. hehehehe (kapan ya gue ganti nama jadi mrs. Saputra.....??? Hehe... Nicholas Saputra maksudnya... :D)
Cewe satu ini emang gokil abiz!! Tidak diragukan kegoKiLannya!!!
Tapi aku tantang bikin kegokilan baru nihhh.... jgn yang itu doank yang sering di tampilkan di mana-mana dooonk??? Hehehehehe
:D

2.Mrs. Goes Adi,
Nah looo.... bisa ga nih bikin foto-foto gokil buuuu??
Hahahahahahaaa :D

3. Mrs. JUPE,
Ni orang suwir sebenernya jutek muka aslinya kalo lo belum kenal-kenal amat guys.. tapi itu karena lo ga tau aja, saudara - saudara..
gitu - gitu gokil loh! Terbukti muka aslinya aja ga jauh beda ma JUPE yang emang GOKIL ABIZ goyangannya!!!

(Maaf bu, tidak bermaksud mempermalukanmu... tapi SANGAT bermaksud menjatuhkanmu... :D)


Alasan kedua,
ini karena bentar lagi ada niatan potong rambut nih... hehehehe
So, puas-puasin nih NARSIS ama rambut....
:D


Wah.. bentar lagi akhir tahun nih...
Mo taun baruan di mana yah??

Mungkin ini saat yang tepat untuk mem-vote "Picture of The Year" saya yang sudah saya upload di mana-mana ampe bosen..
Tapi gue bener-bener suka ma foto-foto ini... it's so... sO.. SO... menurut saya..
(Apa sih...?)


They are... :

This...

and this...

Tak terkalahkan deh...
karena because amarginipun sebabe....
(bahasa alien)







It's so muka BOKEP...




Haiz...



Selamat mengerjakan PR...!

24 Things to Always Remember..!

"Kasihanilah aku, ya Allah, sebab orang-orang menginjak-injak aku, sepanjang hari orang memerangi dan mengimpit aku! Seteru-seteruku menginjak-injak aku sepanjang hari, bahkan banyak orang yang memerangi aku dengan sombong.
Waktu aku takut, aku ini percaya kepada-Mu.."
(Mazmur 56 : 2-4)

Ini renungan di pagi hari tadi ketika aku bergumul,

dan ketika kubuka renungan harian seperti biasanya,

God gives me the answer..

This is for the mistreated people around the world...

***

Your presence is a present to the world.
You are unique and one of a kind.
Your life can be what you want it to be.
Take the days just one at a time.

Count your blessings, not your troubles.
You will make it through whatever comes along.
Within you are so many answers.
Understand, have courage, be strong.

Do not put limits on yourself.
So many dreams are waiting to be realized.
Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
Reach for your peak, your goal and you prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.
Do not take things too seriously.
Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

Remember that a little love goes a long way.
Remember that a lot ... goes forever.
Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
Life's treasure are people together.

Realize that it is never too late.
Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
Have hearth and hope and happiness.
Take the time to wish upon a start.

AND DO NOT EVER FORGET ....
FOR EVEN A DAY
HOW VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE ..!

Hahaha..

Gua punya kejadian lucu akhir-akhir ini...

mungkin menurut orang lain itu bentuk lain dari kata sadis
ato bisa juga bentuk lain dari kata pathetic...
ato mungkin juga bentuk lain dari kata "kasian banget sih lo..???"



tapi menurut gue..

itu adalah bentuk lain dari beberapa kata-kata bijak yang disebut dengan......





GUOBLOOOOOOGGGGGG....
LU YOSSSSS!!!!!!



:D





***



bahwa AKHIRNYAAA gue nyadar seseorang tuh bukan yang terbaik dalam hidup ku baru akhir-akhir ini setelah sekian lama aku dicekokin ma kata-kata itu.. (baru nyadar sekarang ya? ya ampuuunnn... ngelayab kemane aje lu yos?? :D )

Aku baru nyadar.. aku tuh kaya diinjek-injek,
harga diriku ga dianggep (dalam artian gue kaya ga berharga gitu di mata seseorang),
(MESKIPUN mungkin maksudnya ga gitu, tapi justru itu yang dia lakuin..)

Ckk ckk ckk...


Gue tau gue punya cinta yang terlalu besar buat lo..
Tapi bentuk cinta yang gue punya ga bisa serendah itu lo gampangin..!

Gue ga akan repot-repot nunjukin sehebat apa yang gue punya kalo lo ga pernah mau liat..
Gue ga perlu nunjukin apa yang belom lo liat,
seberapa hebat dan seberapa berharga gue yang belum lo tau,
and Thank God lo belum dan ga akan pernah tau itu
Sejak gue tau lo cuma menyia-nyiakan itu,


It's over...



You're not even worth for it..


***


Kata-kataku ga akan pernah berubah..

Bukan berarti gue ga maafin dia yah..
Hey.. it's different!
Stupid for them who think its da same way..

Suatu saat dia akan merasakan semuanya...

Semuanya...




Karena dengan seperti itu orang-orang hebat bisa bertumbuh...
Gua cuma berharap dia adalah salah satunya..

I just wish him all da best,,



***



I have Jesus in my life..
I have you in my life..
I have him and her in my life..
I have them in my life..


And for that people???


Ohhh..
I guess
now he's not even a thing for me...

Yiiiihaaaaaaa!!! ^^

I am sorry..

"I know I haven't been an easy child,
But love for you lies underneath my whims;
There is no way I could be tame or mild:
I need sometimes to shout and wave my limbs.
You're the wall I need to test my height,
The countervailing force to test my strength,
The chain I hammer at with all my might,
Even though you have increased its length.
It's tough, I know, to be both Mom and Dad,
To raise me all alone, just hit or miss;
To have to play at once good cop and bad,
And give me grief before my goodnight kiss.
But love against the odds is stronger still:
I need your fierce, proud love, and always will...

***

If I could give my mom the world
Or anything she wanted,
I'd give her my own heart and soul
And leave my own heart haunted.

I'd take upon myself her life
With all its strife and pain,
And let her ease into some space
Where she could live again.

The pain for me would not be pain,
At least not for a while;
For I'd be doing it for her,
And I would see her smile..

I wish that I could take her heart
And cleanse it with my tears,
And make her sorrow go away,
And answer all her fears.

I wish, I wish, but then I can't,
As I watch helplessly,
And take her in my arms and say
I wish that it were me...

But loving is a hard, hard way,
With all the pain it brings.
And yet there is no other way
To touch the heart of things..

***

Life is not a game to win or lose:
For that the pain on both sides is too real.
It therefore is my place to make a place
Within my heart for one who lives in yours.
There is no way to do this but with grace,
For one must be at home with open doors.
Please forgive the failure of my love..."

And I love you so much... I really do!!!

Aku bersyukur aku punya beliau..
Hey,,, siapa yang tidak..?

Aku bersyukur aku punya dia..
Heyy,,, siapa juga yang tidak...????

Tapi...

bisakah kau mengerti..??

aku tidak suka,
ketika dia dianggap lebih tinggi dari aku..
atau ketika kau menempatkannya lebih tinggi dari kedudukanku...

Kau tidak mengatakannya secara tersurat..
Tapi aku tau.....

Hei...!!
Kami ini SAMA..!!!!!
Kenapa harus kau bedakan?????

Bersyukurlah..

Bersyukurlah meskipun engkau belum mendapatkan semua yang engkau inginkan,
Karena jika engkau sudah mendapatkan semuanya maka engkau akan berhenti berusaha..

Bersyukurlah karena engkau tidak mengetahui tentang sesuatu hal,
Karena itu akan memberimu kesempatan untuk belajar..

Bersyukurlah untuk saat-saat yang sulit,
Karena dalam saat-saat seperti itu engkau bisa bertumbuh..

Bersyukurlah untuk setiap keterbatasanmu,
Karena itu memberimu kesempatan untuk memperbaiki diri..

Bersyukurlah untuk setiap tantangan,
Karena itu akan membangun kekuatan dan karaktermu..

Bersyukurlah untuk kesalahan yang pernah kau buat,
Karena itu memberimu pelajaran yang sangat berharga...

Bersyukurlah ketika engkau merasa lelah,
Karena itu berarti engkau telah melakukan sesuatu dan membuat suatu perbedaan...

"Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it."

- Mother Teresa -

Brian Mcknight- One Last Cry (live 1993) Mp3 Codes

Dust In The Wind

"I close my eyes
only for a moment
and the moment's gone
all my dreams
pass before my eyes a curiosity
dust in the wind
all we are is dust in the wind
Same old song
just a drop of water
in the endless sea
all we do
crumbles to the ground
though we refuse to see
dust in the wind
all we are is dust in the wind

Now, don't hang on
nothing last forever
but the earth and sky
it slips away

And all your money
won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
all we are is dust in the wind
dust in the wind
everything is dust in the wind.."

NB!!! Lanjutan yang tadi...

Ga nyangka..
Belum 5 menit aku post blog tadi..
Dia online..
Kaya ada yang tau aku mo berkata gini dan aku dicoba ga sih...?

...

Tapi aku memantapkan hati,
Setelah sekian lama nyoba maksa-maksa hati, "Apa sih yang lo arepin yos...???"

Dan tanpa ba, bi, ataupun bu,
Meski aku yakin dia bakal mikir dulu "ini siapa" karena aku udah lama banget sama sekali ga kontak secara langsung dengan dia..
Tapi hatiku mantap..!
This is da last text I gave to him...


aManda AuRoRa:
suatu hari nanti, abang akan merasakan... rasanya ditinggal, rasanya disakiti, rasanya kehilangan... ga ngdoain lho! suer deh.. ^^ hehe tapi aku punya Tuhan yang luar biasa mengerti cara membuatku bertumbuh. I just wish u all da best... Gudbye.

Dan dia cuma bales :

mr. J : Wah
mr. J : Trims. gud bye 2


Dan aku delete nicknya dia...
Setelah selama ini aku bersikeras masih ada yang akan terjadi...
Aku percaya aku masih bisa mencintai dengan kepingannya yang tersisa...


Kali ini tidak lagi...



Sekarang aku pergi....

Blank...

Minggu pagi....
ehhhhhh salah, siang ding!
hehehe
Aku bangun jam 11 siang gara-gara ngurus pensi malem minggunya dan bener-bener kecapekan karena jingkrak-jingkrak ga jelas di pensi nya kedokteran yang sedikit agak ramai itu, hohoho..


Minggu siang
aku bangun dan langsung keingetan seseorang..

Herannya yang diinget tu bukan yang pait-pait, tapi yang manis-manis... (mungkin secara gue lagi STB kali ye,, hehehehhehehe :D ---- cengiran paling lebar yang ga banget deh pokonya! :D)

Inget waktu jaman dulu aku masih begini dan begitu..
Waktu aku ini dan aku itu..
Waktu aku kayagini dan aku kaya gitu..
(Paan seh yos?? Ga jelas banget... "Gajebo!!" -- bahasanya Mrs. JUPE!
wakakaka..)
:D


Well intinya, di saat aku inget hal-hal manis itu (kek gitu manis kata lo?????? ckk ckk ckk...)
Ternyata aku lebih heran daripada sebelumnya.
Meskipun aku ingetnya yang manis-manis.. tapi kok ga berasa ada apa-apa ya di dalem sini?? Ga kaya beberapa minggu ato bulan lalu, aku kalo inget hal-hal itu langsung mellow tuh.. langsung ga jelas perasaannya. Trus meratap dan nyoba sok kuat (padahal sih asli cewe kek gue adalah cewe yang sangat lemah sebenarnya. hehehe.. Jadi pria, jangan sakiti wanita seperti saya, plisss!!!!!)


Kali ini,
gue inget ya inget aja. Ambil hikmah ya ambil hikmah aja.. (Ovulasi ya Ovulasi aja! Wakakakakakkk.. :D )

Ga ada lagi perasaan kaya dulu yang tertekan dan berasa kaya dunia runtuh dan berakhir..
Ga ada lagi "feeling so blue" dan mewek-mewek ga jelas lagi...
Ga ada lagi bengkak-bengkak di pagi hari, ato dengan secara mujarab jerawat kempes dengan sendirinya...

Hufff...
Finally...!!!



Apa ini pertanda apiku udah padam padanya ya???
Apa ini pertanda aku siap memulai sesuatu yang baru, yang sudah lama aku tunggu-tunggu???

(Padahal mungkin kalo uji coba liat fotonya gue masih deg-degan aja tuh... Gimana sih yos?? ga jelas banget... hufff.... Yah.. Minimal keingetan kek gini dan ga berasa apa-apa udah bagus banget buat yosi! Bener deh... hehe.. ^^ )


Hanya saja,

Bukannya saat-saat kaya gini yang udah lama kunanti-nanti ya?
Bukannya saat-saat kaya gini yang udah kudoain dari jaman jebot??


Tapi kok aku feel blank banget ya???
Ga punya arah.. padahal papannya banyak!
Tapi aku berasa buta, semuanya keliatan kosong.. jadi aku ga bisa liat arah mana yang harus kutuju...
Apa sih yang lagi gue tunggu-tunggu???


"I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning lovin' somebody don't make them love you
Must I always be waiting, waiting on you
Must I always be playing, playing your fool.."
- J. Johnson -